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Beverly Ann Kegley

Beverly Ann Kegley
Senior Year - Narbonne High School

Beverly Ann Kegley

Beverly Ann Kegley
Beverly in Junior High School

Thursday, January 31, 2013

Dear Beverly

Just stopped in to say hello

            You remembered me.

Always.

Beverly Ann Kegley Carvajal


Doing what I can, but it's not much.
Hopefully the puzzle will the lead the way.


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Four straight lines to connect all nine dots.
Without lifting the pencil off of the page.

Doing the same thing over and over again doesn't work.

Have a tune for you today.   

When you discovered the meaning to the words
of this tune it took on a new meaning for you.
It was a time when your mother protected you
and you could begin to grow beyond
how you were being defined ... sadly, time ran out. 

Enjoy.

Link:  Mocedades: Eres Tú

Like a promise, you are, you are [to me]
Like a summer morning.
Like a smile, you are, you are [to me]
That's how, that's how, you are [that's how I perceive you]

You are like my hope, you are, you are [to me]
Like a fresh rain in my hands
Like a strong breeze, you are, you are [to me]
That's how, that's how, you are [that's how I perceive you]

You are the source of my water
You are the warmth in my home
You are (You are something like, ohhhh)
Like the fire in my fireplace (something like the fire from my fireplace)
You are (You are something like, ohhhh)
The wheat of my bread (my love, you are something like that).

Like my poem, you are, you are [to me]
Like a guitar in the night,
you are all my horizon, you are [to me]
That's how, that's how, you are [that's how I perceive you]

You are the source of my water
You are the warmth in my home
You are (You are something like, ohhhh)
Like the fire in my fireplace (something like the fire from my fireplace)
You are (You are something like, ohhhh)
The wheat of my bread (my love, you are something like that).

You are...

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Dear Beverly


Just stopped in to say how much I miss you.

            Mi Amor, you remembered me.

Always.

Beverly Ann Kegley Carvajal


It is always the little things
that trigger; set off the memories.
A tune; a thought …
not sure if it is good or bad. 
Can’t be bad.

I try to stay away from
the third rail of anger; of hate.
It can consume … I know that.

Have a tune for you today …
Upbeat; fun … enjoy.


Link:  Randy Houser: How Country Feels

You were raised on an asphalt farm
Ain't never heard a rooster crow
Never walked barefoot by a river
Felt the mud up between your toes

You never rolled in the hay
You never thrown it in four wheel
Climb up on here girl
Let me show you how country feels

Let your hair down, hair down
Get you some of this laid on back
Kick your shoes off, kick 'em off
Get you some of this slow down fast
I'll take you up and down these hollers and hills
Let me show you how country feels

You ever watched the sun go down
From the bed of a pickup truck
Ever been so into somebody
You're still lying there when it comes back up

Girl what do you say?
Cut a path through that cornfield
Park down by the water
Let me show you how country feels

Let your hair down, hair down
Get you some of this laid on back
Kick your shoes off, kick 'em off
Get you some of this slow down fast
I'll take you up and down these hollers and hills
Let me show you how country feels

Let your hair down
Get you some of this laid on back
Kick your shoes off (Kick your shoes off)

Let your hair down, hair down
Get you some of this laid on back
Kick your shoes off, kick 'em off
Get you some of this slow down fast
I'll take you up and down these hollers and hills
Let me show you how country feels
Country feels

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Dear Beverly

Just stopped in to say hello.

         You remembered me.

Always.

Beverly Ann Kegley Carvajal



Cold.
How many more days until
the giant rodent sees his shadow?

Can’t come fast enough.

Have a tune for you today.
Something soft and sweet.
Enjoy.


Here I am playing with those memories again
And just when I thought time had set me free
Those thoughts of you keep taunting me

Holding you, a feeling I never outgrew
Though each and every part of me has tried
Only you can fill that space inside

So there's no sense pretending
My heart it's not mending

Just when I thought I was over you
And just when I thought I could stand on my own
Oh baby those memories come crashing through
And I just can't go on without

On my own I've tried to make the best of it alone
I've done everything I can to ease the pain
But only you can stop the rain

I just can't live without you
I miss everything about you

Just when I thought I was over you
And just when I thought I could stand on my own
Oh baby those memories come crashing through
And I just can't go on without
Go on without
It's just no good without you

Monday, January 28, 2013

Dear Beverly

Just stopped in to say hello.

            You remembered me.

Always.

Beverly Ann Kegley Carvajal


Feel like I've been run over.
Stopped raining.    Sun is out.
Cats happy.   Wish I was.
Maybe I'll go back to bed.
Yuck. 

Have a tune for you today ... enjoy.

Link:   Keith Urban: Somebody Like You


There's a new wind blowin' like I've never known
I'm breathin' deeper than I've ever done
And it sure feels good, to finally feel the way I do

Now, I wanna love somebody
Love somebody like you

An' I'm lettin' go of all my lonely yesterdays
I've forgiven myself for the mistakes I've made
Now there's just one thing, the only thing I wanna do, mmm, mmm

I wanna love somebody
Love somebody like you

Yeah, I wanna feel the sunshine
Shinin' down on me and you
When you put your arms around me
You let me know there's nothing in this world I can't do

I used to run in circles goin' no-where fast
I'd take, uh, one step forward and two steps back
Couldn't walk a straight line even if I wanted to, mmm, mmm

I wanna love somebody
Love somebody like you
Whoa here we go now

Yeah, I wanna feel the sunshine
Shinin' down on me and you
When you put your arms around me
Well, baby there ain't nothing in this world I can't do

Sometimes it's hard for me to understand
But you're teachin' me to be a better man
I don't want to take this life for granted like I used to do, no, no

I wanna love somebody
Love somebody like you
I'm ready to love somebody
Love somebody like you, ooh

An' I wanna love somebody
Love somebody like you, yeah

Oh yeah oh, I wanna be the man in the middle of the night
Shinin' like it's true
I wanna be the man that you run to whenever I call on you
When everything that loved someone finally found it's way
Wanna be a better man, I see it in you, yeah, yeah, yeah

Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, you wanna believe it

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Dear Beverly

Just stopped in to say hello.

          Mi Amor, you remembered me.

Always.

Beverly Ann Kegley Carvajal


Dark, rainy ... sun not up yet.
A few moments to reflect.
Memories to play with.

Hard not to be sad on such a dreary day.

Have a tune for you today ...
A fun one ... enjoy.

Link:  Ray Stevens: Everything is Beautiful

Jesus loves the little children
All the little children of the world
Red and yellow, black and white
They are precious in his sight
Jesus loves the little children of the world

Everything is beautiful
In its' own way
Like a starry summer night
Or a snow covered winter's day
Everybody's beautiful
In their own way
Under God's heaven
The world's gonna find a way

There is none so blind
That is he who will not see
We must not close our minds
We must let our thought be free
For every hour that passes by
You know the world
Gets a little bit older
It's time to realize
That beauty lies
In the eyes of the beholder

Everything is beautiful
In its' own way
Like a starry summer nights
Or a snow covered winter's day
Ah, sing it children
Everybody's beautiful
In their own way
Under God's heaven
The world's gonna find a way

We shouldn't care
About the length of his hair
Or the color of his skin
Don't worry about
what shows from without
but the love that lives within
We're gonna get it all together now
Everything gonna work out fine
Just take a little time
to look on the good side my friend
And straighten it out in your mind

Everything is beautiful
In its' own way
Like a starry summer nights
Or a snow covered winter's day
Ah, sing it children
Everybody's beautiful
In their own way
Under God's heaven
The world's gonna find a way

One more time
Everything is beautiful
In its' own way
Like a starry summer nights


Saturday, January 26, 2013

Dear Beverly

Just stopped by to say that you are in my heart this early morning.

           Doll, you remembered me.

Always.

Beverly Ann Kegley Carvajal


Less than a month until
the pitchers and catchers report.

Couldn't tell it from the weather
in most of the country,
but baseball is right the corner.

Have a tune for you today ... enjoy.

Link:   Albert Hammond: It Never Rains in Southern California

Got on board a westbound 747
Didn't think before deciding what to do
Ooh, that talk of opportunities
TV breaks and movies
Rang true
Sure rang true

Seems it never rains in southern California
Seems I've often heard that kind of talk before
It never rains in California
But girl don't they warn ya
It pours, man it pours

Out of work, I'm out of my head
Out of self respect, I'm out of bread
I'm underloved, I'm underfed, I wanna go home
It never rains in California
But girl don't they warn ya
It pours, man it pours

Will you tell the folks back home I nearly made it
Had offers but didn't know which one to take
Please don't tell 'em how you found me
Don't tell 'em how you found me
Gimme a break, give me a break

Seems it never rains in southern California
Seems I've often heard that kind of talk before
It never rains in California
But girl don't they warn ya
It pours, man it pours

Friday, January 25, 2013

Dear Beverly

Just stopped in to say hello.

            You remembered me.

Always.

Beverly Ann Kegley Carvajal


Rain is back.   Dreary.

A few sunny minutes in the park
by the Stagecoach Inn Museum would be nice.

Lunch and then there.
For some reason you just loved it.
Quiet.  Nice. 
We sit at the picnic table and talked.

A few sunny minutes today, in that park
would be nice.

Have a tune for you today ... enjoy.

Link:   Sarah McLachlan: Possession

Listen as the wind blows from across the great divide
voices trapped in yearning, memories trapped in time
the night is my companion, and solitude my guide
would I spend forever here and not be satisfied?

And I would be the one
to hold you down
kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
and after, I'd wipe away the tears
just close your eyes dear

Through this world I've stumbled
so many times betrayed
trying to find an honest word to find
the truth enslaved
oh you speak to me in riddles
and you speak to me in rhymes
my body aches to breathe your breath
your words keep me alive

And I would be the one
to hold you down
kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
and after, I'd wipe away the tears
just close your eyes dear

Into this night I wander
it's morning that I dread
another day of knowing of
the path I fear to tread
oh into the sea of waking dreams
I follow without pride
nothing stands between us here
and I won't be denied

And I would be the one
to hold you down
kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
and after, I'd wipe away the tears
just close your eyes...

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Dear Beverly


You are in my heart and on my mind this morning.

          You remembered me.

Always.

Beverly Ann Kegley Carvajal


The tears have long since dried.
Even on the bad days.
I have learned how to smile; to laugh;
even how to say a prayer or two.

“Lord, please give this angel love.”
That seems to work at easing the pain.

“Lord, show her warmth and kindness.”
That seems to make the sun shine just a little brighter.

Amazing how that works.

Maybe it is an illusion, 
but it doesn't cost much to say,
“Lord, show her warmth and kindness.”

I’ve learned to slow things down too.
Flowers for my love. 
A kindness here and there; it don’t cost much either.
Don’t cost much at all.

I have learned that it don’t cost much
to say hello to strangers.
Why it is next to nothing at all to smile
and ask, “how goes your day?”

“Lord, how goes your day?” 

You wonder if anyone asks that question.
Makes you wonder; something to think about.

“Lord, how goes your day … and please take care
of our special angel.”

Have a tune for you today …

Love's the only house big enough for all the pain”

… enjoy.




I was standing in the grocery store line
The one they marked express
When this woman came through with about 25 things
And I said don't you know that more is less
She said this world is movin' so fast
I just get more behind with every day
And every mornin' when I make my coffee
I can't believe my life's turned out this way
All I could say was

Love's the only house big enough for all the pain in the world
Love's the only house big enough for all the pain

He was walkin' by the other day and I said
Hey baby...how you been
Yeah I got me a little girl now and she's 4 years old
And she's got her daddy's little grin
And you only wanted what you can't have
And baby you can't have me now
I gave me heart to another
Yeah I'm a mother and he's a father and we're a family and we got each other
And I found out the hard way that

Love's the only house big enough for all the pain in the world
Love's the only house big enough for all the pain

You drive three miles from all this prosperity
Down across the river and you see a ghetto there
And we got children walking around with guns
And they got knives and drugs and pain to spare
And here I am in my clean white shirt
With a little money in my pocket and a nice warm home
And we got teenagers walkin' around in a culture of darkness
Livin' together alone...all I can

Love's the only house big enough for all the pain in the world
Love's the only house big enough for all the pain

And I can't explain it and I can't understand
But I'll come down and get my hands dirty and together we'll make a stand
Somewhere 'cross the parking lot some bands playin' out of tune
City streets are gonna burn if we don't do something soon
And senorita can't quit cryin’ baby's due now any day
Don Juan left got sick of trying
No one there to show him the way
She came down to the grocery store and she said I
I wanna buy a little carton of milk but I don't have any money
I said hey I'll cover you honey 'cause the pain's gotta go somewhere
Yeah the pain's gotta go someplace
So come on down to my house
Don't you know that

Love's the only house big enough for all the pain in the world
Love's the only house big enough for all the pain

Don't you know that
Love's the only house big enough for all the pain in the world
Love's the only house big enough for all the pain

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Dear Beverly

Just stopped by to say how much you are in my heart and on my mind this day.

           Oh Doll, you remembered me.

Always.

Beverly Ann Kegley Carvajal


These quiet moments
A time to reflect
A time to remember

Nothing more
Just memories.

Have a tune for you today ... enjoy.
"I'll keep a part of you with me" ... always ... always.

Link: Faith Hill: There You'll Be

When I think back
On these times
And the dreams
We left behind
I'll be glad 'cause
I was blessed to get
To have you in my life
When I look back
On these days
I'll look and see your face
You were right there for me

In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There will always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
And everywhere I am
There you'll be

Well you showed me
How it feels
To feel the sky
Within my reach
And I always
Will remember all
The strength you
Gave to me
Your love made me
Make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me

In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There will always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
And everywhere I am
There you'll be

'Cause I always saw in you
My light, my strength
And I want to thank you
Now for all the ways
You were right there for me
You were right there for me
For always

In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There will always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
There you'll be

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Dear Beverly

Just stopped by to say hello.

          You remembered me.

Always.

Beverly Ann Kegley Carvajal


You were smarter than people gave you credit for.
Especially as you grew older. 
They, the ubiquitous They, defined you.

They said this is who you are,
and sadly, you started to believe them.

You could be like a black hole
as you thought about your life.
It made you sad.  Not sure about angry.
Being defined closed you off.

Your mother had her opinions,
but her love for you let her
get beyond your failings.

I ignored the past
and tried to bring you out of your shell.
For a time it worked.  You responded well.

You were eager to learn and try new things.
Tunes came flooding back in.

But you needed to remain in your place.
That became clear ... even though you were protected by your mom.
How dare you move beyond the one who defined you!

Have a tune for you today ...
"Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter"

The why of it still eludes me ... enjoy.

Link:   Lee Ann Womack: I Hope You Dance

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder,
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger,
May you never take one single breath for granted,
GOD forbid love ever leave you empty handed,
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin' chances but they're worth takin',
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin',
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter,
When you come close to sellin' out reconsider,
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone.)

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

Dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance..
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone)


Monday, January 21, 2013

Dear Beverly

Just stopped by to say hello.

            You remembered me.

Always.

Beverly Ann Kegley Carvajal



Was thinking about you this morning.
How much I miss you.

For so many years we lived by a promised.
It was a good bargain ... you and I knew the reasons.

It doesn't change that I miss you.
Your smile; the humor and so much more.

Have a tune for you today ...
A rockin' fun country tune ... enjoy.

Link:  Florida Georgia Line: Cruise 

Baby you a song
You make me wanna roll my windows down and cruise

Hey baby

Yeah, when I first saw that bikini top on her
She’s poppin’ right out of the South Georgia water
Thought, "Oh, good lord, she had them long tanned legs"
Couldn’t help myself so I walked up and said

Baby you a song
You make me wanna roll my windows down and cruise
Down a back road blowin’ stop signs through the middle
Every little farm town with you
In this brand new Chevy with a lift kit
Would look a hell of a lot better with you up in it
So baby you a song
You make me wanna roll my windows down and cruise

She was sippin’ on southern and singin’ Marshall Tucker
We were falling in love in the sweet heart of summer
She hopped right up into the cab of my truck and said
"Fire it up, let’s go get this thing stuck"

Baby you a song
You make me wanna roll my windows down and cruise
Down a back road blowin’ stop signs through the middle
Every little farm town with you
In this brand new Chevy with a lift kit
Would look a hell of a lot better with you up in it
So baby you a song
You make me wanna roll my windows down and cruise

When that summer sun fell to its knees
I looked at her and she looked at me
And I turned on those KC lights and drove all night
'Cause it felt so right, her and I, man we felt so right

I put it in park and
Grabbed my guitar
And strummed a couple chords
And sang from the heart
Girl you sure got the beat in my chest bumpin’
Hell I can’t get you out of my head

Baby you a song
You make me wanna roll my windows down and cruise
Down a back road blowin’ stop signs through the middle
Every little farm town with you

Baby you a song
You make me wanna roll my windows down and cruise
Down a back road blowin’ stop signs through the middle
Every little farm town with you
In this brand new Chevy with a lift kit
Would look a hell of a lot better with you up in it
Come on

Baby you a song
You make me wanna roll my windows down and cruise
Come on girl
Get those windows down and cruise
Aww yea






Sunday, January 20, 2013

Dear Beverly

Just stopped in to say how much I miss you.

          Mi Amor, you remembered me.

Always.

Beverly Ann Kegley Carvajal


Predawn sky signals a new day.
Yesterday was a sad one.

A good man died.
My boss at MGM/UA Home Video.
He created an environment that allowed us to flurrish.

We succeeded beyond all expectations.

He too had demons.
He was a private man.
A kind man, but he too had demons.

I wish you could have met him.
He was from the music industry,
you two could have talked for hours about tunes.

Once we were in New Orleans for the NARM Convention.
It took us nearly an hour and half to get out of the hotel lobby.
Recording stars kept coming up to him and chatting with him.
I was blown away by how many he knew ... and they knew him.

Yesterday was a sad one.
A good man died.

Link:   Gary Allan: A Feelin' Like That 

Have a tune for you today ... enjoy.

I stepped out into the blue
Felt the wind hit my face
Before my shoot opened I felt my heart race
I was fallin
Oh that's just fallin

Off the coast of Australia
I dove way down deep
For all that I saw of that Great Barrier Reef
It was nothin'
Compared to you it was nothin

I got lightning in my veins
thunder in my chest.
all tangled up with you and tryin to catch my breath
I've been chasing that sensation half way
around the world and lookin' back
on what we had.
I've done it all I've seen it all but I can't find a feelin' like that.

I wound up in some town in spain
runnin with the bulls
Tryin to catch another thrill with a thousand other fools
We were runnin'
Ah but thats just runnin'
when I started pushin' 30
it started pushin back
Well how was I to know till now you'd be such a hard act to follow
Nothin seems to follow

I got Lightning in my veins
thunder in my chest.
all tangled up with you and tryin to catch my breath
I've been chasing that sinsation half way
around the world and lookin' back
on what we had.
I've done it all i've seen it all but I can't find a feelin' like that.

It's like flyin down some back road at midnight
with you eyes closed and the head lights off
Your life is searchin everywhere can't find that feelin anywhere
Your all I want, now all I want is that...

Lightning in my veins
thunder in my chest.
all tangled up with you and tryin to catch my breath
I've been chasing that sensation half way
around the world and looin back
on what we have.
I've done it all I've seen it all but I can't find a feelin' like that.

thats right I've done it all
I've seen it all but I can't find a fellin' like that 

Saturday, January 19, 2013

Dear Beverly

Just stopped by to say hello.

           You remembered me.

Always.

Beverly Ann Kegley Carvajal


It has been a blessing, for me,
to be able to spend these few moments each day
remembering and caring about you.

Your smile.
Your humor.
Your loving nature.
There was a kindness; a sweetness about you.

Have a tune for you today ...  rock on.

Link: The Doors: Touch Me

Yeah! Come on, come on, come on, come on
Now touch me, baby
Can't you see that I am not afraid?
What was that promise that you made?
Why won't you tell me what she said?
What was that promise that you made?

Now, I'm gonna love you
Till the heavens stop the rain
I'm gonna love you
Till the stars fall from the sky for you and I

Come on, come on, come on, come on
Now touch me, baby
Can't you see that I am not afraid?
What was that promise that you made?
Why won't you tell me what she said?
What was that promise that you made?

I'm gonna love you
Till the heavens stop the rain
I'm gonna love you
Till the stars fall from the sky for you and I
I'm gonna love you
Till the heavens stop the rain
I'm gonna love you
Till the stars fall from the sky for you and I

Stronger than dirt 


Friday, January 18, 2013

Dear Beverly


Just stopped in to say that you are on my mind and in my heart this day.

         Mi Amor, you remembered me.

Always.

Beverly Ann Kegley Carvajal

Themes.
Things.
Ripples on the pond.

Random to be sure.

Themes: Kindness and its nature.
Things: The simple act of kindness.

Do these thing pass unnoticed, 
like ripples on a pond?

I don't have the answers.
If I did, perhaps, just perhaps, 
I could have been more helpful.

We will never know.

Have a tune for you today ... enjoy.
"We are fragile, we are human" ... so true.


Trying to live and love,
With a heart that can't be broken,
Is like trying to see the light with eyes that can't be opened.
Yeah, we both carry baggage,
We picked up on our way, so if you love me do it gently,
And I will do the same.

We may shine, we may shatter,
We may be picking up the pieces here on after,
We are fragile, we are human,
We are shaped by the light we let through us,
We break fast, cause we are glass.
Cause we are glass.

I'll let you look inside me, through the stains and through the cracks,
And in the darkness of this moment,
You see the good and bad.
But try not to judge me, 'cause we've walked down different paths,
But it brought us here together, so I won't take that back.

We may shine, we may shatter,
We may be picking up the pieces here on after,
We are fragile, we are human,
We are shaped by the light we let through us,
We break fast, cause we are glass.

We might be oil and water, this could be a big mistake,
We might burn like gasoline and fire,
It's a chance we'll have to take.

We may shine, we may shatter,
We may be picking up the pieces here on after,
We are fragile, we are human,
And we are shaped by the light we let through us,
We break fast, cause we are glass.
We are glass.

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Dear Beverly

Just stopped by to say hello.

            Doll, you remembered me.

Always.

Beverly Ann Kegley Carvajal



Out late last night.
On the drive back from San Diego
got to thinking; a time of reflection.

Realized that the anger is there,
bubbling just below the surface.

Realized too that I have to let it go.
Anger, hate and loathing accomplishes nothing.

Have a tune for you today ... enjoy.

Wish you could have heard this one.
You were never alone; it just seemed that way.

Link: Thompson Square: If I Didn't Have You

Sometimes it feels like, I'm gonna break
Sometimes this world, gives more than I can take
Sometimes, sunshine gets lost in the rain
And it keeps pouring down
It just keeps coming down.

This life would kill me If I didn't have you
I couldn't live without you baby
I wouldn't want to
If you didn't love me so much
I'd never make it through
'Cuz this life would kill me
This life would kill me if I didn't have you.

You are my heart, every breath I breathe
I'm safe in your arms, you rescue me.
When I'm weak, you're strong
If you were gone I don't know where I'd be
You were made for me
(You were made for me)

This life would kill me If I didn't have you
I couldn't live without you baby
I wouldn't want to
If you didn't love me so much
I'd never make it through
'Cuz this life would kill me
This life would kill me if I didn't have you

If you didn't love me so much
(If you didn't love me so much)
This Life would kill me If I didn't have you
(This life would kill me)
Couldn't live without you baby
I wouldn't want to
If you didn't love me so much
I'd never make it through
'Cuz This life would kill me
This Life would kill me if I didn't have you

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Dear Beverly

You are in my heart and on my mind this morning.

             You remembered me.

Always.

Beverly Ann Kegley Carvajal


Kindness.
Thoughtfulness.
Caring.

Of late these concepts have been
rattling around in my brain.

To me, it seems that if you love someone
these things should be how you treat them.

With kindness.
Through thoughtful acts.
Gestures; little things that show you care.

Have a tune for you today ... enjoy.

Link:  Nickelback: If Everyone Cared 

From underneath the trees, we watch the sky
Confusing stars for satellites
I never dreamed that you'd be mine
But here we are, we're here tonight

Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died

And I'm singing

Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive
Amen I, Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive

And in the air the fireflies
Our only light in paradise
We'll show the world they were wrong
And teach them all to sing along

Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
(I'm alive)

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died


If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died

And as we lie beneath the stars
We realize how small we are
If they could love like you and me
Imagine what the world could be

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died
When nobody died...

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died

We'd see the day, we'd see the day
When nobody died
We'd see the day, we'd see the day
When nobody died
We'd see the day when nobody died

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Dear Beverly

Just stopped by to say hello.

             You remembered me.

Always.

Beverly Ann Kegley Carvajal



How is that some people can be kind and open?
Others are closed and cruel.

What is it in the human spirit that accounts for these opposites?

Kind.
Loving.
Sweet.

All of these marked you as a person.

There was also a darkness that consumed you; drove you.
Only much later in life did I understand it.

We were able to talk about it; deal with it.
Then your mother left us and ...
well, closed and cruel was let in.

I wonder if all of the therapy.
All of those doctors.
If they ever asked the question?
Ever understood?

Makes you wonder.

Have a tune for you today ... enjoy.

Link:  James Taylor: Secret 'o Life 

The secret of life is enjoying the passage of time
Any fool can do it
There ain't nothing to it
Nobody knows how we got to
The top of the hill
But since we're on our way down
We might as well enjoy the ride

The secret of love is in opening up your heart
It's okay to feel afraid
But don't let that stand in your way
'Cause anyone knows that love is the only road
And since we're only here for a while
Might as well show some style

Give us a smile now
Isn't it a lovely ride
Sliding down
And gliding down
Try not to try too hard
It's just a lovely ride

Now the thing about time is that time
Isn't really real
It's all on your point of view
How does it feel for you
Einstein said that he could never understand it all
Planets spinning through space
The smile upon your face

Welcome to the human race
Isn't that a lovely ride
Sliding down
Gliding down
Try not to try too hard
It's just a lovely ride

Isn't that a lovely ride
Oh mama yes
See me sliding down
And gliding down
Try not to try too hard
It's just a lovely ride

Now the secret of life is enjoying the passage of time

Monday, January 14, 2013

Dear Beverly


Just stopped in this morning to say that you are on my mind and in my heart.

          Mi Amor, you remembered me.

Always.

Beverly Ann Kegley Carvajal


Metaphors.
Symbols.

Friends speak in shorthand.
Words mean certain things.

There is no need to explain,
it would be boring to recite the meaning of
this or that word in the context of a friendship.

Symbols too have meaning.

Churchill understood that.
“V” for victory with his two fingers.
The Brits understood the deeper meaning.
Bow fingers for the English longbow. 

Metaphors and Symbols.
Powerful.

Hurtful too, when used to inflict pain.

The question that haunts me; bothers me,
is why would someone go to such lengths
to use symbols that you understood;
words that you knew the meaning of
— in context of your life experiences —
to inflict pain; to hurt; to control?

I don’t get it.  
Why go out of your way to hurt someone?

Was it a dance?
A metaphor; a symbolic twist of the knife
only known to the dancers?

Have a tune for you today … enjoy.


A winter's day
In a deep and dark
December,
I am alone,
Gazing from my window to the streets below
On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

I've built walls,
A fortress deep and mighty,
That none may penetrate.
I have no need of friendship, friendship causes pain.
It's laughter and it's loving I disdain.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

Don't talk of love,
But I've heard the words before,
It's sleeping in my memory.
I won't disturb the slumber of feelings that have died.
If I never loved I never would have cried.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

I have my books
And my poetry to protect me,
I am shielded in my armor,
Hiding in my room, safe within my womb.
I touch no one and no one touches me.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

And a rock feels no pain,
And an island never cries.

Sunday, January 13, 2013

Dear Beverly


Just stopped in to say hello.

          You remembered me.

Always.

Beverly Ann Kegley Carvajal


Cold.  Again cold.
Long day ahead.

Just wanted to take a moment to reflect.

Have a tune for you today.
An oldie … enjoy.


Oh, it's so nice to be with you
I love all the things ya say and do
And it's so nice to hear you say
You're gonna please me in every way
Honey, I got the notion
You're causin' commotion in my soul


Baby, you and me have got somethin' that's real
I know it's gonna last a lifetime
Aww, ya better believe it, girl
At night I call your name
Darkness fills my room, I'm only dreamin'
About the time I'm gonna be with you


Oh, it's so nice to be with you
I love all the things ya say and do
And it's so nice to hear you say
You're gonna please me in every way
Honey, I got the notion
You're causin' commotion in my soul


When I'm feelin' down
You're there to pick me up
And help me to carry on
Aww, little things mean a lot
When you need a shoulder to cry on
I'm there to ease the pain
And chase away the rain
Aww, darlin', I just gotta say


Oh, it's so nice to be with you
I love all the things ya say and do
And it's so nice to hear you say
You're gonna please me in every way


Oh, it's so nice to be with you
I love all the things ya say and do
And it's so nice to hear you say
You're gonna please me


Saturday, January 12, 2013

Dear Beverly

Just stopped by to say that you are in my heart.

            Doll, you remembered me.

Always.

Beverly Ann Kegley Carvajal

Dang it's cold.
Makes it all the worst.

Cold ... it's a sad state of mind.
Cold ... it's a lonely state of mind.
Cold without your smile; your humor.

Like you would say, "oh wells."

Have a tune for you today ... enjoy.

Link:  Gary Allan: Life Ain't Always Beautiful


Life ain't always beautiful
Sometimes it's just plain hard
Life can knock you down, it can break your heart

Life ain't always beautiful
You think you're on your way
And it's just a dead end road at the end of the day

But the struggles make you stronger
And the changes make you wise
And happiness has its own way of takin' it's sweet time

No, life ain't always beautiful
Tears will fall sometimes
Life ain't always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride

Life ain't always beautiful
Some days I miss your smile
I get tired of walkin' all these lonely miles

And I wish for just one minute
I could see your pretty face
Guess I can dream, but life don't work that way

But the struggles make you stronger
And the changes make you wise
And happiness has its own way of takin' it's sweet time

No, life ain't always beautiful
But I know I'll be fine
Hey, life ain't always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride
What a beautiful ride

Friday, January 11, 2013

Dear Beverly


Just stopped in to say hello.

         You remembered me.

Always.

Beverly Ann Kegley Carvajal

Cold this morning ... 
Long, dreary stretch of cold nights ahead.

Long for sunny days.
Sunny warm days.
Long for you smile too.

Will have to settle for sunny warm days.

Have a tune for you today.
From one of your favorites … enjoy.


This romeo is bleeding
But you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up

It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up

Now I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me

And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always

Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I've made mistakes, I'm just a man

When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you've been needing to hear
I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mine
To say to you till the end of time

Yeah, I will love you baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always

If you told me to cry for you
I could
If you told me to die for you
I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you

Well, there ain't no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We'll find a place where the sun still shines

And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Dear Beverly

You are in my heart and on my mind this morning.

            Mi Amor, you remembered me.

Always.

Beverly Ann Kegley Carvajal


Some would say that it is pointless.
Some would question why.

Pointless, no; symbolic, yes.
I made a promise to myself and nothing more.

As long as my heart beats you will not be forgotten.

Tunes, not songs.
Tunes, not music.
Just tunes, that is what you called them.

Each morning your day would begin with
words of encouragement.

Each day would begin with a tune
that you could link to.
A tune that you could listen to.
A tune to enjoy.
A bright spot to begin each day.

It was a simple reminder that
you were not alone.
 
But that was all taken away.

When the sister of Connor's mother dare
raise questions in a public forum, your Facebook
page was forcibly deleted.

You were systematically isolated.
But you could have all of the alcohol you wanted.
The pills just kept coming.

One day you simply took control.

No one took the time to call.
No one took the time to care.
No one thought that someone cared.

Grief ... and tears ... and a promise.

As long as my heart beats you will not be forgotten.

Have a tune for you today ... enjoy.

Link: Sarah McLachlan: I Will Remember You 

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard

But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories