Dear Beverly

Just stopped by to say hello.

            Doll, you remembered me.

Always.

Out late last night.
On the drive back from San Diego
got to thinking; a time of reflection.

Realized that the anger is there,
bubbling just below the surface.

Realized too that I have to let it go.
Anger, hate and loathing accomplishes nothing.

Have a tune for you today ... enjoy.

Wish you could have heard this one.
You were never alone; it just seemed that way.

Link: Thompson Square: If I Didn't Have You

Sometimes it feels like, I'm gonna break
Sometimes this world, gives more than I can take
Sometimes, sunshine gets lost in the rain
And it keeps pouring down
It just keeps coming down.

This life would kill me If I didn't have you
I couldn't live without you baby
I wouldn't want to
If you didn't love me so much
I'd never make it through
'Cuz this life would kill me
This life would kill me if I didn't have you.

You are my heart, every breath I breathe
I'm safe in your arms, you rescue me.
When I'm weak, you're strong
If you were gone I don't know where I'd be
You were made for me
(You were made for me)

This life would kill me If I didn't have you
I couldn't live without you baby
I wouldn't want to
If you didn't love me so much
I'd never make it through
'Cuz this life would kill me
This life would kill me if I didn't have you

If you didn't love me so much
(If you didn't love me so much)
This Life would kill me If I didn't have you
(This life would kill me)
Couldn't live without you baby
I wouldn't want to
If you didn't love me so much
I'd never make it through
'Cuz This life would kill me
This Life would kill me if I didn't have you

Dear Beverly

You are in my heart and on my mind this morning.

             You remembered me.

Always.

Kindness.
Thoughtfulness.
Caring.

Of late these concepts have been
rattling around in my brain.

To me, it seems that if you love someone
these things should be how you treat them.

With kindness.
Through thoughtful acts.
Gestures; little things that show you care.

Have a tune for you today ... enjoy.

Link:  Nickelback: If Everyone Cared 

From underneath the trees, we watch the sky
Confusing stars for satellites
I never dreamed that you'd be mine
But here we are, we're here tonight

Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died

And I'm singing

Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive
Amen I, Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive

And in the air the fireflies
Our only light in paradise
We'll show the world they were wrong
And teach them all to sing along

Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
(I'm alive)

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died


If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died

And as we lie beneath the stars
We realize how small we are
If they could love like you and me
Imagine what the world could be

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died
When nobody died...

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died

We'd see the day, we'd see the day
When nobody died
We'd see the day, we'd see the day
When nobody died
We'd see the day when nobody died

Dear Beverly

Just stopped by to say hello.

             You remembered me.

Always.

How is that some people can be kind and open?
Others are closed and cruel.

What is it in the human spirit that accounts for these opposites?

Kind.
Loving.
Sweet.

All of these marked you as a person.

There was also a darkness that consumed you; drove you.
Only much later in life did I understand it.

We were able to talk about it; deal with it.
Then your mother left us and ...
well, closed and cruel was let in.

I wonder if all of the therapy.
All of those doctors.
If they ever asked the question?
Ever understood?

Makes you wonder.

Have a tune for you today ... enjoy.

Link:  James Taylor: Secret 'o Life 

The secret of life is enjoying the passage of time
Any fool can do it
There ain't nothing to it
Nobody knows how we got to
The top of the hill
But since we're on our way down
We might as well enjoy the ride

The secret of love is in opening up your heart
It's okay to feel afraid
But don't let that stand in your way
'Cause anyone knows that love is the only road
And since we're only here for a while
Might as well show some style

Give us a smile now
Isn't it a lovely ride
Sliding down
And gliding down
Try not to try too hard
It's just a lovely ride

Now the thing about time is that time
Isn't really real
It's all on your point of view
How does it feel for you
Einstein said that he could never understand it all
Planets spinning through space
The smile upon your face

Welcome to the human race
Isn't that a lovely ride
Sliding down
Gliding down
Try not to try too hard
It's just a lovely ride

Isn't that a lovely ride
Oh mama yes
See me sliding down
And gliding down
Try not to try too hard
It's just a lovely ride

Now the secret of life is enjoying the passage of time

Dear Beverly

Just stopped in this morning to say that you are on my mind and in my heart.

          Mi Amor, you remembered me.

Always.

Metaphors.

Symbols.

Friends speak in shorthand.

Words mean certain things.

There is no need to explain,

it would be boring to recite the meaning of

this or that word in the context of a friendship.

Symbols too have meaning.

Churchill understood that.

“V” for victory with his two fingers.

The Brits understood the deeper meaning.

Bow fingers for the English longbow. 

Metaphors and Symbols.

Powerful.

Hurtful too, when used to inflict pain.

The question that haunts me; bothers me,

is why would someone go to such lengths

to use symbols that you understood;

words that you knew the meaning of

— in context of your life experiences —

to inflict pain; to hurt; to control?

I don’t get it.  

Why go out of your way to hurt someone?

Was it a dance?

A metaphor; a symbolic twist of the knife

only known to the dancers?

Have a tune for you today … enjoy.

Link:  Simon and Garfunkel: I Am A Rock

A winter's day
In a deep and dark
December,
I am alone,
Gazing from my window to the streets below
On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

I've built walls,
A fortress deep and mighty,
That none may penetrate.
I have no need of friendship, friendship causes pain.
It's laughter and it's loving I disdain.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

Don't talk of love,
But I've heard the words before,
It's sleeping in my memory.
I won't disturb the slumber of feelings that have died.
If I never loved I never would have cried.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

I have my books
And my poetry to protect me,
I am shielded in my armor,
Hiding in my room, safe within my womb.
I touch no one and no one touches me.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

And a rock feels no pain,
And an island never cries.

Dear Beverly

Just stopped in to say hello.

          You remembered me.

Always.

Cold.  Again cold.

Long day ahead.

Just wanted to take a moment to reflect.

Have a tune for you today.

An oldie … enjoy.

Link:  Gallery: It's So Nice to be With You

Oh, it's so nice to be with you
I love all the things ya say and do
And it's so nice to hear you say
You're gonna please me in every way
Honey, I got the notion
You're causin' commotion in my soul

Baby, you and me have got somethin' that's real
I know it's gonna last a lifetime
Aww, ya better believe it, girl
At night I call your name
Darkness fills my room, I'm only dreamin'
About the time I'm gonna be with you

Oh, it's so nice to be with you
I love all the things ya say and do
And it's so nice to hear you say
You're gonna please me in every way
Honey, I got the notion
You're causin' commotion in my soul

When I'm feelin' down
You're there to pick me up
And help me to carry on
Aww, little things mean a lot
When you need a shoulder to cry on
I'm there to ease the pain
And chase away the rain
Aww, darlin', I just gotta say

Oh, it's so nice to be with you
I love all the things ya say and do
And it's so nice to hear you say
You're gonna please me in every way

Oh, it's so nice to be with you
I love all the things ya say and do
And it's so nice to hear you say
You're gonna please me

Dear Beverly

Just stopped by to say that you are in my heart.

            Doll, you remembered me.

Always.

Dang it's cold.
Makes it all the worst.

Cold ... it's a sad state of mind.
Cold ... it's a lonely state of mind.
Cold without your smile; your humor.

Like you would say, "oh wells."

Have a tune for you today ... enjoy.

Link:  Gary Allan: Life Ain't Always Beautiful

Life ain't always beautiful
Sometimes it's just plain hard
Life can knock you down, it can break your heart

Life ain't always beautiful
You think you're on your way
And it's just a dead end road at the end of the day

But the struggles make you stronger
And the changes make you wise
And happiness has its own way of takin' it's sweet time

No, life ain't always beautiful
Tears will fall sometimes
Life ain't always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride

Life ain't always beautiful
Some days I miss your smile
I get tired of walkin' all these lonely miles

And I wish for just one minute
I could see your pretty face
Guess I can dream, but life don't work that way

But the struggles make you stronger
And the changes make you wise
And happiness has its own way of takin' it's sweet time

No, life ain't always beautiful
But I know I'll be fine
Hey, life ain't always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride
What a beautiful ride

Dear Beverly

Just stopped in to say hello.

         You remembered me.

Always.

Cold this morning ... 

Long, dreary stretch of cold nights ahead.

Long for sunny days.

Sunny warm days.

Long for you smile too.

Will have to settle for sunny warm days.

Have a tune for you today.

From one of your favorites … enjoy.

Link:  Bon Jovi: Always

This romeo is bleeding
But you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up

It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up

Now I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me

And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always

Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I've made mistakes, I'm just a man

When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you've been needing to hear
I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mine
To say to you till the end of time

Yeah, I will love you baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always

If you told me to cry for you
I could
If you told me to die for you
I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you

Well, there ain't no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We'll find a place where the sun still shines

And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always