Dear Beverly

Just stopped by to say hello.

         You remembered me.

Always.

Beautiful morning.

Cats very happy.

Eight in a row … sorry.

        Pfffffffffttttt.

I have a tune for you today … enjoy.

Link:  Evanescence: My Immortal

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

Dear Beverly

Just stopped by to say that your memory remains within my heart.

         Mi Amor, you remembered me.

Always.

Drove by the Pinksberry

in Hillcrest yesterday.

Wanted to cry.

So sad, so incredibly sad.

Have a tune for you today … enjoy.

Link:  Keith Urban: Tonight I Wanna Cry

Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

Would it help if I turned a sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

Dear Beverly

Just stopped by to say hello.

         You remembered me.

Always.

Change in the weather.

Sunny, bright day.

Refreshing after nearly

a week of gloomy, rainy weather.

Perhaps the change

will help your boys.

Seven in row!

        Pfffffffffttttt!

Have a tune for you today … enjoy.

Link: Brantley Gilbert:More Than Miles

Maybe I should take that picture off the dashboard
Before her memory hits the brakes and takes the wheel
Yeah I bet she's still crying on that front porch
Yeah, this time it's gonna take some time to heal

Cause I'm on my way to Tennessee
Singing "Georgia On My Mind"
Chasing what they say's a dream
Thinking maybe it ain't mine
Cause that girl's in every song I sing
She's in every song I write
And that six string ridin' in her seat
Won't keep me warm tonight
God what am I supposed to do?
There's more than miles in my rearview

Well, I'm headed north to what I swore I wanted
And trying not to buy into my doubts
But I just can't seem to keep myself from wondering
Why I'm jealous of all them headlights headed south

Cause I'm on my way to Tennessee
Singing "Georgia On My Mind"
Chasing what they says a dream
Thinking maybe it ain't mine
Cause that girl's in every song I sing
She's in every song I write
And that six string ridin' in her seat
Won't keep me warm tonight
God what am I supposed to do?
There's still more than miles in my rearview

Yeah, more than miles
Yeah, I've been changing lanes without my mirrors
Cause every time I look behind me I see her
I think I just realized how much I need her (damn)

So I'm turning back for Georgia
Stopping short of Tennessee
I can't put my dreams before her
Man, I need her with me
Cause that girl's in every song I sing
She's in every song I write
And that six string ridin' in her seat
Can sleep in the back tonight
Now I know what I'm supposed to do, yeah
There's still more than miles in my rear view

More than miles, yeah
More than miles

Dear Beverly

Just stopped by to say hello.

      You remembered me.

Always.

Ugly!  

That’s how your boys

are playing these days.

Last place.

Lost six in a row.

         Flip.

Have a tune for you today … enjoy.

Link:  Jim Croce: Time in a Bottle

If I could save time in a bottle
The first thing that I'd like to do
Is to save every day till eternity passes away
Just to spend them with you

If I could make days last forever
If words could make wishes come true
I'd save every day like a treasure and then
Again, I would spend them with you

But there never seems to be enough time
To do the things you want to do, once you find them
I've looked around enough to know
That you're the one I want to go through time with

If I had a box just for wishes
And dreams that had never come true
The box would be empty, except for the memory of how
They were answered by you

But there never seems to be enough time
To do the things you want to do, once you find them
I've looked around enough to know
That you're the one I want to go through time with

Dear Beverly

Just stopped by to say hello.

          You remembered me.

Always.

Rained over night.

Cats not happy.

Dreary morning.

Bad news about your boys.

Last place.  

Swept by the nasty Giants.

            Oh wells.

Have a tune for you today … enjoy.

Link:  Lonestar: Not a Day Goes By

Got a picture of you I carry in my heart

Close my eyes to see it when the world gets dark
Got a memory of you I carry in my soul
I wrap it close around me when the nights get cold
If you asked me how I'm doin' I'd say just fine
But the truth is baby, if you could read my mind

Not a day goes by that I don't think of you
After all this time you're still with me it's true
Somehow you remain locked so deep inside
Baby, baby, oh baby, not a day goes by

I still wait for the phone in the middle of the night
Thinkin' you might call me if your dreams don't turn out right
And it still amazes me that I lie here in the dark
Wishin' you were next to me, with your head against my heart
If you asked me how I'm doing I'd say just fine
But the truth is baby, if you could read my mind

Not a day goes by that I don't think of you
After all this time you're still with me it's true
Somehow you remain locked so deep inside
Baby, baby, oh baby, not a day goes by

Minutes turn to hours, and the hours to days
Seems it's been forever that I've felt this way

Not a day goes by that I don't think of you
After all this time you're still with me it's true
Somehow you remain locked so deep inside
Baby, baby, oh baby, not a day goes by

Dear Beverly

Just stopped by to say hello.

         You remembered me.

Always.

Rainy day.

Dreary day.

Cats disappointed.

Have a tune for you today … enjoy.

Train: Calling All Angels

I need a sign to let me know you're here
All of these lines are being crossed over the atmosphere
I need to know that things are gonna look up
'Cause I feel us drowning in a sea spilled from a cup

When there is no place safe and no safe place to put my head
When you feel the world shake from the words that are said

And I'm calling all angels
I'm calling all you angels

I won't give up if you don't give up

I won't give up if you don't give up

I won't give up if you don't give up

I won't give up if you don't give up

I need a sign to let me know you're here
'Cause my TV set just keeps it all from being clear
I want a reason for the way things have to be
I need a hand to help build up some kind of hope inside of me

And I'm calling all angels
I'm calling all you angels

When children have to play inside so they don't disappear
While private eyes solve marriage lies cause we don't talk for years
And football teams are kissing Queens
and losing sight of having dreams
In a world that what we want is only what we want until it's ours

And I'm calling all angels
I'm calling all you angels

And I'm calling all angels
I'm calling all you angels

Calling all you angels

Calling all you angels

Calling all you angels

Dear Beverly

This morning your memory remains within my heart.

         Mi Amor, you remembered me.

Always.  Always.

It was so simple.

Deceptively so.

For months we had talked,

but not about it.  It!

It was the elephant in the room.

You knew it.  I knew it.

I picked you up at your mom’s

and we went to lunch.

You had found a place

called Bella Luna. 

Funny, but you liked saying it,

“Bella Luna, Bella Luna.”  

It was lyrical.

It was in the center

by the freeway

on Ventu Parkway.

We took a place in the corner;

windows to your back

and to your right.

It was a sunny day. 

The sunlight lit the room.

The years hadn’t been kind.

But you remained beautiful.

Your smile; your humor.

The pleasant way about you.

Kind; sweet … and yet guarded.

A black hole on some days.

You had lost everything.

Your home; your painted sunflowers.

The real estate bubble took the condo too.

Your job was gone.  

Now you were living with Fran.

You had been through hell,

but there was still more to come.

The packages of hate

arrived on a regular basis.

The almost daily text messages

and phone calls came

crashing in on you as well.

The nasty emails to you; to me.  

Copies cut and pasted,

Assembled, copied and delivered

by hand or by mail to harass

and to isolate you.

Sick.

With Fran, you were safe.

There we sat

in the corner of the café.

We talked.  We ordered lunch.

We talked about this and that.

And then suddenly you said,

“I made a terrible mistake.”

Even today I can see it clearly,

you saying the words.

The elephant was suddenly loose.

I knew immediately

what you were trying to say;

what you wanted to say.

but it couldn’t be.  

The wall between us

needed to come down. 

We needed peace …

all the years; all the hurt …

it had to go.

I stopped you before

you could go further and said,

“You made no mistakes.”

“You have three beautiful children.”

“They are not mistakes.”

You so desperately

needed to hear the love.

Despite everything,

the outcome was a blessing.

In that moment we were free.

The why of it didn’t matter;

lost to time.

I look back on that lunch.

I look back on that day

when you brought your infant son

to me and the pledge

between us was made.

That day.  That lunch.

They were like dots

connected through time.

Last June’s phone call

was another dot; the last dot

on the pages of our lives.

All connected …

I am blessed to

have known you.

I am blessed to

have called you my friend.

I am blessed to

have loved you; love you still.

I am blessed for

all that I have in my life.

I wish I could change things.

I would change many things.

But you take the blessings with the bad.

That’s life.

On a day; a sunny day

at the Bella Luna

you and I found peace.

I am blessed.

Have a tune for you today 

Last June, "Said goodbye, turned around
And you were gone, gone, gone
Faded into the setting sun,
Slipped away"

... enjoy. 

Link:   Carrie Underwood: See You Again

Said goodbye, turned around
And you were gone, gone, gone
Faded into the setting sun,
Slipped away
But I won’t cry
Cause I know I’ll never be lonely
For you are the stars to me,
You are the light I follow
 
I’ll See you again, oh
This is not where it ends
I will carry you with me, oh
Till I see you again

I can hear those echoes in the wind at night
Calling me back in time
Back to you
In a place far away
Where the water meets the sky
The thought of it makes me smile
You are my tomorrow

I’ll See you again, oh
This is not where it ends
I will carry you with me, oh
Till I see you again

Sometimes I feel my heart is breaking
But I stay strong and I hold on cause I know
I’ll see you again, oh
This is not where it ends
I will carry you with me, yeah yeah

I’ll See you again, oh
This is not where it ends
I will carry you with me, oh
Till I see you again
Till I see you again,
Till I see you again,
Said goodbye turned around
And you were gone, gone, gone.