Dear Beverly

Just stopped in to say hello.

             You remembered me.

Always.

Were symptoms masked?

Carotid stenosis and the aftermath of the event you experienced at Thanksgiving in 2008 can present in similar fashions.

Reduced blood flow to the brain. 
Oh, she’s just confused … give her another pill.

Slurred speech … too much to drink, again.  Right?

A pill for this.

A pill for that.

Was there a pill for being 95% stenosis of the proximal half of the left anterior descending branch?

Was there a pill for being 70% stenosis of the proximal half of the right coronary artery?

Did the pill pushers, I mean doctors, even know?

They couldn’t have known … 95% stenosis of the proximal half of the left anterior descending branch is a heart attack waiting to happen.   That’s emergency room stuff.

Why bother with such things.

You were nothing more than a prisoner being warehoused.

A pill for this.

A pill for that.

And I’m not supposed to be angry?

Anger only begins to describe how I feel about what was done to you.

Sad tune today … sad tune … you called ‘em “tunes.”   

Link:   Billy Dean: Somewhere in My Broken Heart

You made up your mind it was time it was over
After we had come so far.
I think there's enough pieces of forgiveness
Some where in my broken heart.

I would not have chosen the road you have taken,
It has left us miles apart.
I think I can still find the will to keep going
Some where in my broken heart.

So fly. Go ahead and fly,
Till you find out who you are.
And I, I will keep my love unspoken
Some where in my broken heart.

I hope that in time you will find what you long for.
Love that's written in the stars.
When you finally do, I think you will see
It's some where in my broken heart.

Girl, I, I will keep my love unspoken
Some where in my broken heart.

I hope that in time you will find what you long for.
Love that's written in the stars.
When you finally do, I think you will see
It's some where in my broken
Some where in my broken
Some where in my broken heart.

Dear Beverly

Stopped by to say that you are in my heart and on my mind.

             You remembered me.

Always.

Time change last night, early but it seems later.
Darkness will come earlier and earlier ... can't say that I like it.

How about some Freddie Mercury and Queen as your tune for today?

          Smile.

Here you go.

Link: Queen: Bohemian Rhapsody

Is this the real life?
Is this just fantasy?
Caught in a landslide,
No escape from reality.
Open your eyes, Look up to the skies and see,
I'm just a poor boy, I need no sympathy,
Because I'm easy come, easy go, Little high, little low,
Any way the wind blows doesn't really matter to me, to me.

Mama just killed a man,
Put a gun against his head, pulled my trigger, now he's dead.
Mama, life had just begun,
But now I've gone and thrown it all away.
Mama, ooh, Didn't mean to make you cry,
If I'm not back again this time tomorrow,
Carry on, carry on as if nothing really matters.

Too late, my time has come,
Sends shivers down my spine, body's aching all the time.
Goodbye, ev'rybody, I've got to go,
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth.
Mama, ooh, I don't want to die,
I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all.

I see a little silhouetto of a man,
Scaramouche, Scaramouche, will you do the Fandango.
Thunderbolt and lightning, very, very fright'ning me.
(Galileo.) Galileo. (Galileo.) Galileo, Galileo figaro
Magnifico. I'm just a poor boy and nobody loves me.
He's just a poor boy from a poor family,
Spare him his life from this monstrosity.
Easy come, easy go, will you let me go.
Bismillah! No, we will not let you go.
(Let him go!) Bismillah! We will not let you go.
(Let him go!) Bismillah! We will not let you go.
(Let me go.) Will not let you go.
(Let me go.) Will not let you go. (Let me go.) Ah.
No, no, no, no, no, no, no.
(Oh mama mia, mama mia.) Mama mia, let me go.
Beelzebub has a devil put aside for me, for me, for me.

So you think you can stone me and spit in my eye.
So you think you can love me and leave me to die.
Oh, baby, can't do this to me, baby,
Just gotta get out, just gotta get right outta here.

Nothing really matters, Anyone can see,
Nothing really matters,
Nothing really matters to me.

Any way the wind blows.

Dear Beverly

Just stopped in to say hello.

         Oh Doll, you remembered me.

Always.

So many questions.

There would always be time to ask them.

There would always be time …

So many things to talk about.

There would always be time to chat.

So many subjects to cover.

So many secrets to let go of.

Share the load, it’s lighter that way.

There would always be time …

Funny how it worked out.

There wasn’t enough time.

We will get together for lunch.

And then, well, not possible.

What was that song from the Little River Band way back then?

Oops, sorry, what was that “tune” from the Little River Band?

“take time to make time” … so true, so true. 

When the time runs out there are no more answers … and no more tunes.

It is all just symbolic now.  

A “tune” to begin your day ... a tiny symbol to remind you that you were not alone.

You would get up in the morning and log into your email to see what was there. 

And between the taunts of hate and belittlements, there would be your “tune.”

A “tune” waiting.  Just waiting for you … country; rock. 

Or if you went to the dark side, you’d get the Rubber Ducky song. 

Why did you have to read the other emails?  Why?

Just delete the venom.  Why did you let him get inside your head?

Why did you make time for that?

Time is so precious.

Here's that "tune" ...enjoy

Link:  Little River Band: Lady 

Look around you, look up here
Take time to make time
Make time to be there
Look around, be a part
Feel for the winter
But don't have a cold heart

And I love you best
You're not like the rest
You're there when I need you
You're there when I need
I'm gonna need you

A long time ago
I had a lady to love
She made me think of things
I never thought of
Now she's gone and I'm on my own
A love song has come into my mind
A love song
It was there all the time

So lady
Let me take a look at you now
You're there on the dance floor
Making me want you somehow
Oh lady
I think it's only fair
I should say to you
Don't be thinkin' that I don't want you
'Cause maybe I do

Look around, come to me
I have no answers
But know where I wanna be
I look around, play a part
I was born in the winter
And cooled by a warm heart

And I love you best
You're not like the rest
You're there when I need you
You're there when I need
I'm gonna need you

So lady
Let me take a look at you now
You're there on the dance floor
Making me want you somehow
Oh lady
I think it's only fair I should say to you
Don't be thinkin' that I don't want you
'Cause maybe I do
Don't be thinkin' that I don't want you
Lady I do

Dear Beverly

I was just thinking about you and came by to say hello.

             Mi Amor, you remembered me.

Always.

Gloomy, overcast day.
Hard to get movin' on days like this.
Your smile could chase these clouds away, I'm certain of that.

Have a tune for you today ... enjoy


Link: Gary Allan: Every Storm (Runs Out of Rain)

I saw you standing in the middle of the thunder and lightning
I know you're feeling like you just can't win, but you're trying
It's hard to keep on keepin' on, when you're being pushed around
Don't even know which way is up, just keep spinning down, 'round, down…

Every storm runs, runs out of rain
Just like every dark night turns into day
Every heartache will fade away
Just like every storm runs, runs out of rain

So hold your head up and tell yourself that there's something more
Walk out that door
Go find a new rose, don't be afraid of the thorns
'Cause we all have thorns
Just put your feet up to the edge, put your face in the wind
And when you fall back down, keep on rememberin'

Every storm runs, runs out of rain
Just like every dark night turns into day
Every heartache will fade away
Just like every storm runs, runs out of rain

It's gonna run out of pain
It's gonna run out of sting
It's gonna leave you alone
It's gonna set you free
Set you free

Every storm runs, runs out of rain
Just like every dark night turns into day
Every heartache will fade away
Just like every storm runs, runs out of rain

It's gonna set you free,
It's gonna run out of pain,
It's gonna set you free

Dear Beverly

Dropped in to say hello.

             You remembered me.

Always.

Struggles with demons, how does that work?
Are there exits through kindness, caring and understanding?
Are these acts of love and friendship a waste of time?

I would like to think that the positive can help.
Negative reinforcement makes it worse?
Does that how it works?

Like you would say "oh wells" ... the demons still come.

Have a tune for you today ... enjoy.


Link:  Garth Brooks: The Dance

Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared 'neath the stars alone
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye

And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance
I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

Holding you I held everything
For a moment wasn't I a king
But if I'd only known how the king would fall
Hey, who's to say you know I might have chanced it all

And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance
I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

Yes, my life is better left to chance
I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

Dear Beverly

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Trick or treat!

Just stopped in to say trick or treat, it’s Halloween!

        Boo!  Gotcha Doll!   You remembered me!

Always.

You got all dressed up for a Halloween party in 2008 at your friend’s house.

You could be such a goof.  

Were you the good witch or the bad witch?

        Smile.

The moon will be bright tonight … perhaps a silver moon!   

Here’s a tune for you to celebrate that!      

Link:   Michael Nesmith: Silver Moon

See the lazy windmills slowly turning
Cutting up the marble canyons of the sky
See the dust around my feet go churning
Moving with the winds down the highways
Of goodbyes

Standing in the lonely light of the silver moon
Looking over maps of memories for the road
Standing in the lonely light of the silver moon
With the unexpected destination of my home

Half the thoughts I'm thinking speak in sighs
As that same old wave of lonliness returns
And I can see you when I close my eyes
Speaking very softly as you turned

Standing in the lonely light of the silver moon
Looking over maps of memories for the road
Standing in the lonely light of the silver moon
With the unexpected destination of my home

Now I must go
Go and let go

Standing in the lonely light of the silver moon
Looking over maps of memories for the road
Standing in the lonely light of the silver moon
With the unexpected destination of my home

Dear Beverly

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Just stopped in to say hello.

You are in my heart and on my mind all of the time.

I love you … always have … always will.

          Oh Mi Amor, you remembered me.

Always.

Sunflowers are just like you.

Happy … they seem to smile.

They are always bright, even on the darkness days.

Beverly, that’s you.

Your smile could light the world.

It is so sad that the world is so much darker these days.

We all need your smile.

We all need sunflowers on dark and stormy days.

Remember.  Remember this always.

You are loved.  You were never alone.

And as long as my heart beats you will not be forgotten.

Fun tune for you today … rock out; enjoy.

Link:   Abba: Waterloo

My, my, at Waterloo Napoleon did surrender
Oh yeah, and I have met my destiny in quite a similar way
The history book on the shelf
Is always repeating itself

Waterloo - I was defeated, you won the war
Waterloo - Promise to love you for ever more
Waterloo - Couldn't escape if I wanted to
Waterloo - Knowing my fate is to be with you
Waterloo - Finally facing my Waterloo

My, my, I tried to hold you back but you were stronger
Oh yeah, and now it seems my only chance is giving up the fight
And how could I ever refuse
I feel like I win when I lose

Waterloo - I was defeated, you won the war
Waterloo - Promise to love you for ever more
Waterloo - Couldn't escape if I wanted to
Waterloo - Knowing my fate is to be with you
Waterloo - Finally facing my Waterloo

So how could I ever refuse
I feel like I win when I lose -

Waterloo - Couldn't escape if I wanted to
Waterloo - Knowing my fate is to be with you
Waterloo - Finally facing my Waterloo